Well, for those of you who haven't figured it out already, I'm a submissive.
A submissive. Someone who's foremost desire is to submit and please, who is happiest and healthiest with someone else else in control.
I had a big long post semi-written up where I explained all of this, and then realized what I was doing.
I was trying to justify myself, but there's no justification needed.
I am a submissive. I am not weak, or stupid, I'd just much rather my dom (Chris) be in control.
It's honestly that simple. I don't know why I've been so ashamed of the way I am for so long. So ashamed that I've been writing about it at another site instead of just coming out and saying it.
That is who I am. I am no longer ashamed of being who I am.